Is it too hard...?

I just don't get it. -What makes one man romantic and another bone dry?
I know a man who send his wife love letters to their house. Another man who stops by the side of the road and picks wild flowers for his wife.
Or take a man who just holds his wife's hand or rubs her shoulders. I just don't get it.

My man? Not a romantic bone in his body. I ask for affection. I ask for specific things. It never happens. I get so tired of saying, Honey, I need some attention. I get laughed at.

Last night we had awesome sex.
As we caught our breath, I said to him a bunch of sweet things, and how much I loved him; how he was the only one for me. You know what he said? He said, You know since the baby is asleep, you may want to try to get some sleep. Now you want to make a woman feel worthless,then do just that. He definitely made me feel like shit.

Is it too hard to make me feel special or that you care? Or is it just that I'm not worth it? Do I really deserve nothing?

My insides so crave that special love, special attention. I hurt so much where I should be full of happiness.

I just so want to feel his strong arms around me, telling me how much I mean to him, without the pressure of sex. Give me love and I'll give you all the sex you need. Just feed my heart first.

Is it so hard to leave a note? To bring a flower home? To hold me and speak words of love? To tell me that I am beautiful, even knowing that you lie...just to say it...just to hear it.

SM is my very best friend. He just isn't my romantic man.

In spite of it all, I love that man.