Out of the wild blue yonder...

I had no idea that a certain someone had such negative feelings about me.

It kinda came out of nowhere.
Actually in all fairness, there was a situation that a certain person created. I was a little worried...then upset...then mad about said situation. After I finally talked to the person, I learned some things that left me thinking where in the world did that come from. Things from persons own mouth.

Look, I even apologized for feeling so upset/worried/mad. Only to have said person tell me my apologies mean nothing to them. What the fuck is up with that? And then for them to say that I ruined their whole week-weekend for being so worried about them.

I can honestly say that I had no clue whatsoever that they held such low regard for me. All I could say was wow. Wow. I mean how can you even fathom that?

Out of the wild blue yonder came a bombshell. I wasn't prepared for it and it almost got the best of me. So, I type out my thoughts/feelings at almost 1am.

You know deep down inside me, I know that person is dead wrong. Yet I can't shake the feeling wondering if or what I ever did to give them that impression of me.

..........time passes, seconds, minutes, an hour..........no answer or peace still........

Randoms

Have nothing huge to blog about. So I will ramble along.

I will say that SM snooped my blog the other day. He wasn't to happy that I was so raw and real with my emotions. Told him that's what my blog is for...my thoughts/feelings.
He understood finally; apologized and such.

For mother's day he bought me a wedding band set. I love it.
We got married in a pent church, no rings allowed, so I have never had a real set of wedding rings. I am very excited about them.

School is almost over. All three kids will be home. Plus another late August. Although my oldest is vacationing with her mawmaw in Indiana during June.

My hair has gotten so dark over the past 3 years. So I am slowly getting it back to light brown. In fact I am coloring it as I type. About to pass out from the chemical smell too. I hope it turns out ok. If not, you may hear me scream very loudly.

I just noticed the time. I am missing the Rangers. My boys are one game away from 500. Doing really well so far. Pitching and defense have really pulled it together. Proud of my Rangers.

I got six minutes left for my hair to cook so I am going to end these blah blah verbal vomit.

Oh and I just wnt to say, GRRR UBUTI!!!